The First

This is how I'm feeling right now… can't even think of an "appropriate" title for this post. I'm not even sure why the hell I'm posting this. I just have to let it out I guess, or I'll burst into tears right here…

Yes.. this IS my very first post categorized under "Rants and Grumbles"… I'm human too.. so sue me for being sad and depressed. I am very capable of getting hurt too! I just hope people will get that…Anyway, I will apologize for the mushiness of this post. You may puke in your own time if you wish. Or you can just stop visiting my blog page completely. I really won't mind…

I'm having conversations in my head again. I do that whenever I want to say something but I can't. It's not really a conversation. More like a monologue in my head but I also picture the person I want to say it to right there, listening to me…really listening to what I really have to say. So here's what I want to ask you… 

Why? Why is it so hard for you to include me in your world? 

I really don't understand. I remember saying it once. Or at least implying it. I even remember you apologizing for it. It started out as an "example" in one of our petty arguments and I was hoping the message got through. But apparently not, coz you did it again. You just keep on doing it.

Hindi ko alam kung anong mararamdaman ko minsan. Minsan nakakainis. Minsan nakakabastos. Minsan nakakadepress. Natatanong ko tuloy: Ikinakahiya mo ba ako sa kanila?

I'm trying to make up excuses for you. Maybe you think it would be awkward for me so you're just "sparing" me from all of it. Yeah, the concern is appreciated and I am getting your point. But sometimes, the mere invitation means so much more. It shows you're actually giving me an opportunity to be a part of what you have.

I'm not trying to invade your life completely. You deserve some personal space as much as I do. All I'm asking is that you let me feel that I can be part of the things that are important to you. 

Masaya naman ako eh. Pero hindi ko lang maintindihan talaga kung bakit minsan nagiging "others" na lang ako sa buhay mo. 

Haaaaay.. naiiyak na ako..  ayoko na.. siguro pagod lang.. ayaw ko nang mag-isip ng masama pang kahulugan. I'm still not feeling any better even after this…

Note to self: Ten days to go… 

"The!"

I got this from a forwarded email. It made my head hurt so bad I just had to share it. Prepare for a major nose-bleed! Ahahahah =))

We' ve been friends for a long time ago. We come from the same alma mother. Actually, our paths crossed one time on another. But it's only now that I gave him a second look. I realized that beauty is in the eyes. The pulpbits of my heart went fast, really fast. Cute pala siya. And then, he came over with me. He said, "I hope you don't mine. Can I get your number?" Nag-worry ako. What if he doesn't give it back? He explained naman na it's so we could keep intact daw. Sabi ko, connect me if i'm wrong but are you asking me ouch? Nabigla siya. Sagot niya, The! Aba! Parang siya pa ang galit! Persona ingrata!!! Ang kapal niya! I cried buckles of tears.

Na-guilty yata siya. Sabi niya, isipin mo na lang na this is a blessing in the sky. Irregardless daw of his feelings, we'll go ouch na rin. Now, we're so in love. Mute and epidemic na ang past. Thanks God we swallowed our fried. Kasi, I'm 33 na and I'm running our time. After 2 weeks, he plopped the question. "Will you marriage me?" I'm in a state of shocked. Kasi mantakin mo, when it rains, it's four! This is true good to be true. So siyempre, I said yes. Love is a many splendor.

Pero nung inaayos ko na ang aming kasal, everything swell to pieces. Nag-di-dinner kami noon nang biglang sa harap ng aming table, may babaeng humirit ng, "Well, well, well. Look do we have here." What the fuss! The nerd ng babaeng yon! She said they were still on. So I told her, whatever is that, cut me some slacks! I didn't want this to get our hand kaya I had to sip it in the bud. She accused me of steeling her boyfriend. Ats if! I don't want to portrait the role of the other woman. Gosh, tell me to the marines! I told her, "please, mine you own business!" Who would believe her anyway?

Dahil it's not my problem anymore but her problem anymore, tumigil na rin siya ng panggugulo. Everything is coming up daisies. I'm so happy. Even my boyfriend said liketwice. He's so supportive. Sabi niya, "Look at is this way. She's our of our lives."

Kaya advise ko sa inyo - take the risk. You can never can tell. Just burn the bridge when you get there. Life is shorts. If you make a mistake, we'll just pray for the internal and external repose of your soul. I second emotion. 

 

"Batch Pic!"

I already had this entry in mind and I was saving it for today. But now I'm kinda hesitant to start it. Kasi feeling ko maiiyak ako. So anyway, I don't have much to say except that JUNO5 are a few of the greatest people I've ever met. Mahal ko kayong lahat sincerely!

Shouting out "Batch pic!" on every single event here in the office will never be the same again, knowing that starting today, we're no longer complete… =( Hay, I miss you guys already…

In any case, let's look back shall we…

This was taken during our Java Training. Birthday din ni Genobear nun.

These pictures we're taken during our regularization. December 06, 2005 to be exact. The first two pictures were taken at Chowking: The place to be. Ahahahah. This is where we almost always have our batch lunches. =P And ofcourse, we have Pizza Hut, ang default treat. Pag may palm card ka, tipid ka.. =P

  Taken during our few movie outings. Bihira kami makumpleto kasi di pwede magpagabi ang iba. But I'm already thankful for those rare moments.

Ofcourse, during some of the company events in the office, like Christmas parties, Beach parties, and Sportsfests. Kahit hindi talaga kumpleto, pipilitin makumpleto ang Batch pic, kahit na superimposed lang. Hahahah =P

  And finally, ang pinakauna naming Batch Pic. I made this myself and gave it as a gift on our first Christmas together. So we'll always have a piece of each other (musheeee). 

Oh, ito pala ang pinaka-finale. Official na pinakalast batch pic na kumpleto kami. After two years…two great years.

Friends…walang limutan ha… =)